110+1 QUESTION

The artist himself writes about his mural with the lovesick skeleton, holding a flower: ‘Lovesickness is more than just a feeling; it is a spiritual journey that challenges both the conscious and the subconscious alike. It is as if the heart is being pierced by 111 unanswered questions, each one an arrow that stabs deeper the longer it remains unanswered. It is the confrontation with the deepest fears and the greatest longings, with the question of one’s own worth and the uncertainty, of whether the love one longs for will ever be reciprocated. But of all these questions, there is one that hovers over everything: “She loves me – She loves me not?!?” This question, so simple and yet so overwhelming, becomes a constant companion, a constant melody in the background of our thoughts and being that fills our days and nights. While on this journey, you are constantly searching for answers, for signs, for some form of certainty in a world that seems anything but safe.

And in fact, in the cruel reality of heartache, every question often remains unanswered. Our pleas, our desire for clarity, our need for a sign – all of this is ignored, remains unheeded. Ignorance can be a choice, a defense mechanism, or simply the result of a life that has not given us time to dig deeper. It is as if the world around us has gone numb, as if the universe has decided to punish us with silence. In this paralyzing silence, without answers or reactions, we feel abandoned, like a ship without a compass, floating in an endless dark sea of uncertainty.

In the depths of this emotional state, it is as if every action, every word, every thought only produces the wrong result. The world becomes a labyrinth of misunderstandings and failures in which we become hopelessly lost. Every attempt to win back the lost love, every attempt to salvage the situation, only seems to bring more pain, more suffering, as if the universe is challenging us to test our limits and prove our strength. The loneliness in this all-encompassing silence is overwhelming. It is a pain that wears down not only the mind but also the soul, a suffering that goes deeper than words can describe.

In all the sorrow, a silent cry for love arises, coming from deep within our souls. It is a scream that no one hears, a scream that fades away in the vacuum of our loneliness. But it is not only an expression of our pain; it is also a sign of our unbroken hope. Because despite everything, despite the ignorance, despite the suffering, despite the unanswered questions, we continue to cry out for the love we lack, for the connection that could heal us. The pain is more than just a mental and physical sensation; it is a spiritual experience, an echo of our unfulfilled desires and unsatisfied needs.

In this pain we find ourselves forced to make sacrifices – sacrifices that weaken us and even almost cost us our lives but can somehow also make us stronger. That give us what we need most: the awareness that, despite everything, we are still alive, that we can still feel something, that we can still hope.

So we remain in the unknown, driven by the 110 questions and the one extra that keeps our hearts in suspense. But perhaps that is exactly where the essence of life is hidden, drawing us deeper into the mystery of being – in the unanswered questions, in the suffering, in the pain and in the sacrifices. We are seekers, because in the depths of consciousness and subconsciousness lies not only the source of our pain, but also the key to our true self. And perhaps it is precisely this search that defines us, that shows us that life is not always about the answers, but about the willingness to ask the questions, to endure the pain, to make the sacrifices and to interpret the signs that the universe sends us on our path. 111!’